As I celebrate my birthday today, so many emotions are going through my head. I used to get the birthday blues yearly up until a few years ago. So you can imagine my surprise when I started feeling sad as my birthday started approaching this year. I suppose it’s because of the current state of everything going on around the world. I’ve been trying to shake off the sad feelings and just trying to stay positive and distract myself. To keep it real, it has been tough. Designs by LeahV and I planned out this shoot some weeks ago and I was excited up until two weeks ago. The death of Floyd and Breanna really triggered something in me that made me feel hopeless and defeated so I canceled the shoot last week. I just didn’t feel right having this moment of joy with all the negativity that surrounds me. While thinking about the shoot, I got a sudden urge to continue with it. This is my “let me find joy in the midst of my sadness” moment and I’m so glad that I did it. I had a lot of fun with the shoot and I didn’t want the day to be over. I haven’t had an elaborate birthday celebration in many years and can’t do much now because of Covid. I’m so glad that I was able to do this shoot and most importantly, grateful that the Lord saw it fit for me to be able to celebrate.
Shout out to Designs by LeahV for pimping out my deck, everything turned out so beautiful!!!